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This is my very first blog.(2006-2007)
i've three blogs in total.
cos i create a new blog every yr
this blog is full of weird typings.
so bare with it (:

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January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006

* been addicted tturhh journey tturhh darhh west show . hahas . SUPER NICE . x)

* re-doing shopping blog with jas and ivan . so excited !

* tomorrow's pork chop's party . IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT .

mydeadline
10:20:00 PM

my blog has problem . and its irritating me . DAMN IT .

mydeadline
10:03:00 PM

happy birthday george !!!

* went tturh meet my bro at bugis . didnt tell george dhatt ii was going . SURPRISE ! =]

* ate long john's for lunch . missed the food there .

* went golden mile for pool . won quite a few times =) YEAH .

* walked tturhh grandparents place . stayed there for a while . then mum and dad fetched me for dinner . had bak kut teh . =]

* borrowed journey tturhh darhh west VCD from bro . gonna watch it now .

* dhatts all ! bye bye !

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10:00:00 PM

* slept for 17 hours . im so AWAKE :)

* had lunch . watched my tape .

* packed my books and rubbish . spent like 3 hours or more . i definately throw away lots of things . hahs

* im stuck tturhh youtube these days . and ii found this video of celest chen's love life . and ii think its damn saddening larh . cryied alot . maybe im too emotional ?

take a look :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrIfzA1-HWM&NR ( part one )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjfZPLnvXys&NR ( part two )

* oh ! and this korean mtv . its also damn saddening larh . its bout . this lady met a man . then they fall in love then . after that the woman became blind . then the man donate his dont noe what tturhh the woman . tturhh help the lady gain her sight . but the girl didnt noe . watch the mtv for more details . =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h27hWSeVsAM&mode=related&search

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7:40:00 PM

* took back our report books today . promoted . yay-ners . =)

* went home tturhh change and prepare myself . took like almost two hours . =x

* took a cab down tturhh center point tturhh meet donnna . wendy and jolyn .

* watch DOA deadd or alive at plaza sing . THE SHOW ROCKED =) holly valance is HOT

* waited with jolyn for her bus . then went tturhh slack at starbucks . ii felt damn sick . almost vomited . so ii ran off tturhh the toilet . after that my parents came . so didnt have a chance tturhh say bye tturhh them . sorry donna and wendy

this was posted on the 27th of october 2006

mydeadline
7:29:00 PM

* no school for me today . woke up at 7.30 waited for mr lee's call . then talk tturhh donna on the fone . but that faggot didnt call . idiot . then ii went tturhh sleep at 8.30 . =)

* went tturhh meet aishah . mira . clarissa . jean . amanda . joelle . khai . tina . fiona at park way KFC .

* pierced my ear with mira . aiishah and khai . =)

* came home . use the comp . and im bored . chatted with wendy on line . =) first tyme talk tturhh her online for soo long siiarh . hahas . she's a nice person =) and she actually wrote poems . and they are nice !

* going out with donna wendy pork chop and jolyn tomorrow . =] yay ~ !

show you one of them .

The heart cries, wither and die,
When you told the truth about those lies,
Lay your smile, across my broken dreams,
Venting my anger, so loudly I scream.

Punched the mirror, hands full of blood,
These cuts within, stabbed through my heart,
On my hand, you see the horrid scars,
I miss you,
But I've stopped wondering where you are.

A love once so strong, now broken,
Empty handed and lost, you're unforgiven,
Crushed deep down, but smiling outside,
You know sadness lies beneath my eye.

I've lost my love, it's never coming back,
But still, it's one I'll never forget.

There's no point in crying,
Everytime I do, I feel my heart dying,
Wiping my own tears, I cry in vain,
You'll never know how I'm able to withstand this pain.

Looking at our old photographs I cried,
Wondering how long more I'll put up with this fight,
People come and go so fast,
You were one of those who really last.

Cupid, shoot me with your arrow once again,
I'll do everything right and leave out the pain,
Staring at the scars on my hand,
It scares me that the pain was so real,
With a piece of paper and a pen,
I write about the feelings that you kill.

You killed me once, you killed me twice,
You set my heart on fire, now it's as cold as ice,
Finding my broken soul shattered on the floor,
Time and time again you walked out that door.

I went to the places we once did together,
I tried means and ways but I couldn't get better,
Now that we're so far apart,
I just hope that you'll always be the one who mends my broken heart,
I'll still be waiting,
I'm not going,
Til then baby.

[[ copyrighted - wendy]]

mydeadline
8:11:00 PM

Happy Hari Raya tturhh ALL my muslim friends

* ii had s shock of my life last night siiarh . wtf . joanna stead with ADRIANO can !? yes . the campus super star adriano . wtf larh . omg . ii cannort believe it . what is happening tturhh darhh world ?!

* talked tturhh donna on the phone till 4 plus in the mornx . hahas . its been a long time since ii last talk tturhh her on the fone . =]

* woke up at three plus in the afternoon . mom was awake . then ii watch vcd .

* its nine and im gonna watch my show ! bye bye !

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9:02:00 PM

* went school . kindda boring . ran away half way . with heather . jean . cecilia and ada . went toilet . did so many stupid things there . muahahaha .

* came home . slept . amber my step sister came with daddy and aunty linda . amber's CUTE .

* going for dinner soon . thats all . bye bye :)

ii feel deadd these few days .
iim having mix feelings .
i feel alone . and ii cant
reach out tturhh
anyone . ii have scars
all over me . and it
never seems tturhh
heal . when i close my eyes .
ii see flash back of us having fun .
ii feel empty inside me .
save me from this mess .
get me outta this .
ii just wanna love like
any other ordinary
girls . i need some one now .
im falling apart ...
help me . would you ?

mydeadline
7:26:00 PM

* woke up at 3 plus in the afternoon . nno one was at home . paernts went tturhh work . sigh .

* use the comp . had lotssa things tturhh do . plan for class dinner . key iin stuffs iin dahrh comp . delete nonsense stuffs . help stacey ddo her blog . and more .

* went for dinner at muthu's curry . dont now where larh . the food was nice . and ii ate ALOT . * faints * iim suppose tturhh ggo on a diet can . sighh .

* not going school tomorrow . tralalalas ~

found this quite nice . :)

Take that knife and cut me down,
From the railing where I was found,
No blood shall spill out from my veins,
I will leave no marks, no bloody stains.
My death shall be no burden felt,
As they cut me from that fatal belt,
Say a prayer, but do not cry,
Don't ache and grieve and wonder why.
I died for reasons you'll never know,
So just bury me deep and let it go,
Erase me from your train of thought,
I don't want to be remembered for the pain I brought.
So don't wollow over my memory,
Because the answers you seek you'll never see.

[[ copy riightted ]] - her BloodShed

mydeadline
10:48:00 PM

happy deepavali !

* went tturhh my parveens house tturhh celebrate deepavali . met some bitches from st hilders . EWW .

* PARVEEN GAVE ME A SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS SOFT TOY ! YAY !

* went for dinner with her down stairs my house . then went home after dhatt .

* bored . i've got nothing tturhh ddo .

me and parveen got the same ring ! =) how coincidental .

from parveen tturhh me ! =)

mydeadline
8:48:00 PM

* siigh . mr stranger didnt tag . =(

* i think im falling for her . more than i use to . bad thing or good thing ?

* sigh . dont wanna blog anymore .

# tturhh get good grades
# get into poly (hopefully)
# TO BE WITH YOU

three wishes ..

mydeadline
11:48:00 AM

* ii cant waiit tturhh blog ! cos some thing happen this mornx . and it really made my day .

* skipped skool tturhhdae . post exams activities always suck .

* took a bus tturhh darhh poly clinic at park way . walked in . FREEZE . the air con damn cold larhh !! fuckk . lucky gortt my story book tturhh divert my attention . so ii feel less cold . while waiting for my number at the reception area .

* finally gort my number and room number . its like all the way in . then so little people there . the more ii walk towards the room the colder it gets .WTF .

* the fucking doctor . took like soo damn long tturhh get readyy . ii gortt nno jackett . damn cold can . how poor thing . i pity myself . hahas .

* then came along this guy . ii think hhe didnt ggo skool also . hahas . he's wearing he's skool shoes . i think . he sat down . not really beside me larhh . cos got one big gap . i think he saw me keep trying tturhh makeself warm .

* he walked away . then came back with a jacket . i dont noe from where also . lol . when ii saw him hugging his jacket . im like soo jealous larh ! lols .

* then hhe walked ttowards me . hand me his jacket . he said " erm . you wan not ? " then ii was like . thank you so much . lol

* I FINALLYIE HAD WARMTH . =] ii think he himself is cold . although when ii ask him and he denied .

* before ii wentt iin tturhh see dhatt faggot doctor . ii return the jacket tturhh him . and of course . i thank him again . i borrowed the doctor's pen . wrote my blog URl on the Q number paper . than gave him when ii went out . ii ask him tturhh visit my blog .

* i dont noe how tturhh thank you . so ii decided tturhh thank you here . =] thanks a million ! ii would have died of coldness there . =] rmb tturhh trag my blog and tell me your name ! =]

* i met the sweetest stranger ever . =]

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4:57:00 PM

* omg . for the fiirst time in my life . MIRACLES happens on me =]

* I PASS MY OVERALL ENGLISH . which means . IM GOING TTURHH SEC FOUR ! =]

* mr mayor gave us back pur literature papaer . PASS =] sweet .

* had fun during maths lesson . =] clarissa entertain me with all her tricks and riddles . LOLS .

* planning a EOY dinner for all THREE ONERS with porkk chop =]

* a big thank you tturhh all darhh peeps who cheered and care for me when ii cried on class that day . =] thanks a million . after this . ii finallyiie know dhatt . dhatt are m ore people whu cares bout me then ii expected . like julia =] love ya girlfriend !

* went LJS with mira and amrita after school . had fun . oh boy . how i love my bestest friend AMRITA KAUR . shes an angel . we always fall in love with the same thing . and the same person . =] amrita . you noe whu ?? hahahahhahas .

* i wanna but that mr bean bed sheet ! argh !

ART STUDENTS WORK PIECE <3>

venus's

yuki's

( A1 lehh. . dont play play . she gortt the highest in class =] )

eleana's

paint is use on all the art pieces you see here . no other stuffs . may be black marker tturhh outline .

mydeadline
4:47:00 PM

BAD BAD BAD BAD DAY

* fail my social studies

* fail maths

* fail chemistry

* fail bio

* fail english .. but haven add up total score

* pass chinese

* pass art

* literature dont know yet

* WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AINT ENOUGH . I NEED A MIRACLE

mydeadline
3:51:00 PM

* decided tturhh blog now . cos ii've got nothing tturhh do .

* just woke up . yawns

* staying home today . again . and doing nth . sigh .

* can anyone lend me their VCDS ? im like so bored larh !!!!

* anyways . guess i'll bbe friendstering the whole day . lortssa things dhatt ii wanna ddo . =]

* im hungry . but i've got no money !!! boo hoo hoo .

* okiiesx .. iim gonna stop here . tatas .

mydeadline
3:38:00 PM

* stayed home darhh whole day .

* stupid haze is making me feel so sick .

* its been so long siince ii last use friendster . hahas . so may be . ii shall start using iit agaiin =]

* iim addicted tturhh darhh song Pon De Replay by Rihanna . thankks tturhh Bring It On - All Or Nothing (niice show)

* thats nothing more tturhh blog .

* so . bye bye ! =x

mydeadline
10:35:00 PM

happy birthday tturhh my rwawkstarr aiishahh !!

* meet up with my lovely 2 A's at dhoby ghaut MRT station =]

* went arcade . playyed DDR .

* went tturhh check darhh movie time . watched scoop . funny movie . hahas

* throw pop corns around during the movies . me and amrita laughed alot . but most of the time . she laughing tturhh her self . FOR NO REASON .

* went bugiis after dhatt . tturhh timothys's shop . =]

* then wentt home . with aishah . im tiired ~

mydeadline
9:06:00 PM

opps ! sorry ii didnt blog . hahas .

*was busy with aisihah's birthday present =]

* spent 7 hours straight doing it larhh . ** backk ache **

too tired tturhh blog . gonna sleep now .

* 7 hours of hard ship ...

mydeadline
5:06:00 AM

* its the last day of exam . and im relieved . no more burning of mid night oil ! =]

* oral sucks . had mrs chow . ii screwed it . damnn .

* took a cab tturhh aishah's house tturhh get her wallet . and off tturhh bugis we go !!!! =]

* supoose tturhh watch movie . but the movies were limited . as we went shopping instead .

* aishahh bought me a wallet from darhh wallet shop !! tokk like forever tturhh choose the RIGHT ONE . hahas . amrita and amirah kept complaining . =X

* went shopping . bought quiite alort of things =]

* had long john for lunch . and i ate like . soooooooooo much . was starving man

* went bugis street after that . saw the human like bag . we and amrita went tturhh see . and this guy who worked there was CUTE . hahas . timothy is his name =] he gave us 15% discount =] going back on saturday tturhh buy dhatt bag =]

* aiishah and i told amrita and mira that we were goinng tturhh darhh toilet . and of course . WE HAD OTHER PLANS =]

* ran round darhh whole of bugis street look for ORANGE stuffs =] for amrita's present . her upcoming birthday =]

* put all the orange stuffs inside a bag . and then . we gave it tturhh her . =] she was shocked and happy . =] she gave us a hug =]

* just as we were walking tturhh darhh bus stop . ii saw some thing . =] hahs . guess what people .

* i bought a SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS BOXER ! =]

* took bus with amirah and aishah . and we went going mad in the bus .

* it started with the miss soTONG . we were quarreling over the pronunciation . hahas . aishah was like its TONG . and i pronounce it in an other way . quarreling and quarreling . then ii suddenlyiie shouted tang . lols . and we burst out laughing .

* we started giving examples like . im from kaTANG convent secondary school . LOLS . wtf .

* rent Just My Luck and im gonna watch it later =] slept like five plus all darhh way until almost ten . =]

* and now . photos time =]

a list of urls for my blog =] i finish my chem paper in 15 mins . and gortt nth better tturhh do .

us . in darhh wallet shop =]

i want these cups !!!! T.T

i ate this ALL BY MYSELF =] * teehees

wallet from aishah . from The WALLET Shop

who lives in a pineapple under the sea ?!

SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS !

mydeadline
12:00:00 AM

* i wish ii didnt wake up today . receive a msg from you . asking me tturhh ignore every thing dhatt you've said last night . ii knew this was gonna happen . but still . deep down . im stilll feeling so sad . i should have known that you were drunk . and i shouldnt have believe whatever you've said . i dont know whats got into me. everything is nothing but a dream . i woke up and saw that msg . tears came rolling down . but its ok . thanks for giving such beautiful memories . although i know you have long forgotten whardd you've said . maybe its just a lie .....

* went over tturhh granny's place . was grandpa's birthday today took lots of pictures with my bro . its been soo long since we last met .

* CAMWHORE

the act cute siblings =]

act cute pose 1 =]

we are having so much fun ~

we are soooooo retarded

im faking a stupid smile . just to show that im ok .

mydeadline
9:38:00 PM

* got pang sehh-ed by squid . he wanted tturhh study and all . but its ok la . i understand . i mean . exams aint over so .. ya . you're forgiven squid !

* went online . amrita talked to me =] I LOVE HER ! =] she skiipped school and went home . what a naughty girl right ?!

* had fun talking tturhh her online . she flooded my tagboard . so i did darhh same ~ ! =]

* went tturhh meet jim . wei jie . max . anthony at bedok . donna was there too . but didnt get tturhh meet her =[

* played pool . went for lunch . and when we came back . i saw that fella from I Not Stupid . dhatt guy who knows martial art dhatt one , the one dhatt he's father died . ya . and . he's not as good looking as he is on tv . hahas . he came with his girlfriend .

* then played pool with jasmine . and her friend . then went home .

* saw donna on darhh bus on the darhh home =] i miised her soooo very much =]

* donna went mad . i dont why . andd . donna . if you're reading this . i just wan to tell you dhatt . thankks for making me feel loved with all darhh msges =] may be you wont even rmb what you told me the next day . or maybe it was just a prank or something . but i really appreciate it and i will believe whatever things dhatt you've said tturhh me . for my sake . please storp saying those stuffs about yourself again . it doesnt hurt you . but its does to me . i dont wanna see you in this state . neither would i wanna hear you saying you that wanna die . aer you gonna leave me alone is this world ? and . lastly . my feelings for you have nothing tturhh do with her . and always rmb this . I LOVE YOU TRUCK LOADS

** go rest early ok ? and if you're still not feeling well tomorrow . go see a doctor . cos of the haze , im worried that you will fall sick . and . dont think too much . everything will be fine . i mean . even if its not . you still have me ! tturhh share your problems with =] i'll always be there for you . everybody leaves you but not angel =] always rmb dhatt =]

* to amrita the ding dong bell
hey hey ! just wanna thank you for being such a sweet and nice friend . really cheer me up when im feeling sad . and your stupidity really makes me laugh . hahas . i really cherish you as a friend . and i will never wanna lose you ~! you are one of the bestest friend ever . and i will always continue tturhh give you warmth when you're cold . and lend you a listening ear . lend you my shoulder when you cry . and supply you with many many tissue =] . from darhh bottom of my heart . you rock man ~! and i really love you !!!!!! =D

mydeadline
11:24:00 AM

* hahas ! i couldnt wake up this mornx . lol . sorry cecilia ! =X

* went tturhh meet melvin at park way . then we go find kin kor kor . =]

* went tturhh meet jing wen . xiao baii liian , his stead and jerren came along . then they went jerren's house .

* then play pool with louis ( the pro ) he's cute =]

* went jerren's huose for a while . then went home .

* can home . vomited . =.= stupid haze . make me so sick .

* played carom with mel . melvin gold medal lerhh wor !! =]

* then now . talking tturhh aiishah and watching ghost whisperer

mydeadline
10:48:00 PM

* was too busy with my art stuffs last nigh . so didnt blog . apologise .

* had maths paper 2 today . oh my gosh . damn difficult larhh . im shure ii will fail with f~l~y~i~n~g colurs =]

* chiong my art in darhh art room during darhh less then one hour break in between darhh papers . with leng bing . lys . chitra . shi min .

* went tturhh eat with chitra lys and annie . my god . annie is a damn babi larh can . she fucking can eat bodoh ! sigh . i pity lys . tsk tsk

* went for a breather after dhatt . then went home . use my art stuffs . peggy tan didnt alow us tturhh wash in skool . =.= and of course ! im a good student i bring go home wash . hahas .

* lao gong coming give me chem notes for my chem EOY ! thanks lao gong ! oh ! and i want dhatt cake too !! =]

* tomorrow mornx my house oopen party . LOLS . xiia lann kiia coming for SOME THING . heather coming tturhh pass me my heels . then i told aiishah and amrita to meet me at my house also . hahahs .

* talking tturhh cecilia . and some unknown people . hahas . then gonna check mails .

* good night and swiit dreams people . rmb tturhh dream of me . LOLS . =X

mydeadline
10:17:00 PM

* i gave you the last min of 02.10.06 . trying hard to not to believe all this is actually happening tturhh me .

* history paper was a disaster . fuck .

* i spend the whole night studying . even made en effort tturhh wake up an hour before the time i wake up . fucking hell . the paper come out with some shit question .

* went for breakfast with jean . pork chop . clarissa

* went back tturhh school for oral .

* did art with yan chee . lys . pork chop annie at the void deck outside school . they did my art for me ~! thankks a miliion people !

* went home . slept . had dinner . watching tv now . gonna sleep soon .

* not gonna study for maths tomolo . CONFIRM FAIL LA .

doing art =] chitra came tturhh visit us . hahas .

yan chee and pork chop . engross in helping me with my art . thankks !

stupid annie . lol . torturing the cockroach . and scary us with it =.=

one of prok chops drawing - jay chou

me and shi min . =]

mydeadline
9:40:00 PM

* had bio paper . TOTALLY SCREWD IT . nothing went into my jelly brain . hahas . everything i read just bounce off .

* went for breakfast with pork chop and clarissa after the paper . then went for a breather after that . then study downstairs my block .

* had lit paper after dhatt . was ok . hahas . wrote a two and the half page answer for darhh fiirst question . for the first time . lols .

* went for another breather with ******* then after dhatt . we sat down and chatted for a while . then went home

* had my beauty sleep =]

* woke up had dinner . and now . im gonna study ~ wish me luck for tomorrow's ss paper !

mydeadline
8:19:00 PM

tiiring day tturhhdae ~

*woke up . saw 3 missed calls . from wei lun and tee kuen . returned call . went tturhh meet tee kuen , emily and wei lun at ah gong's house which is three levels down my storey .

* smoke smoke and more smoking . went home after dhatt tturhh change . then went tturhh meet jasper and eugene . went east coast after that =]

* DDR ! damn long didnt play already . hahas . went bowling after that . went to the beach after that . then jasper and eugene gotta go . so left me emily and wei lun .

* sat there for a while . talk talk talk . then went home =]

* went for dinner with parents . at lavender .

* gonna study now . =] suppose tturhh study in the afternoon larh . but then too much distractions . so the books i bought are useless .

* IM TIRED ~ =.= sighhhhhh .

theres nth mroe i can say . no words can ever express how sorry i feel . i just wish that i can turn back time .

mydeadline
8:48:00 PM